Writer's Block: Loved Ones Afar
Aug. 4th, 2008 08:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Wow this being the writer's block today is just so appropriate.
I miss people terribly, especially my friends. I'm socially retarded, so the fact that I have as many as I do is down right remarkable. An inner circle of three, one who is almost there, one who left before she got the chance to be, two who are good friends and have even shared some intense stuff but some reason I'm just not as close to them. That's seven friends I interact with pretty regularly.
For someone like me, that's incredible. I don't make friends easily. I've been told I'm aloof and unaproachable. Which I know is totally true because I knew I was shy. I just didn't know it was coming off like "don't talk to me" instead of "I don't know what to say when you talk to me."
So, completely on the fly of course, I planned this weekend where the three inner circles and me could get together, all of us, for the first time since high school graduation. It was brought on because one the Inner Circles asked me if we were ever going to act on this fantasy road trip we'd been talking about since middle school. I said probably not but we should at least get together for a few days and go to an amusement park or something.
Because I so utterly suck at planning, one of the inner circles can't make it. We're all way bummed and miss her a lot. The remaining three of us are gonna try and pull it together anyway, but we might not make even that.
So, yeah, she's one of my best friends and it's ridiculously easy to miss her. I always say she's more like my sister than my best friend. What makes this all worse is that we're all kinda going through some stuff right now and need each other more than ever. We have IM and email, but that's just not enough sometimes.
It's not her fault and there's nothing she can do, but I wish she could come. The chance to just blow off some steam together like the good ole days is what we all need right now.
Wow this being the writer's block today is just so appropriate.
I miss people terribly, especially my friends. I'm socially retarded, so the fact that I have as many as I do is down right remarkable. An inner circle of three, one who is almost there, one who left before she got the chance to be, two who are good friends and have even shared some intense stuff but some reason I'm just not as close to them. That's seven friends I interact with pretty regularly.
For someone like me, that's incredible. I don't make friends easily. I've been told I'm aloof and unaproachable. Which I know is totally true because I knew I was shy. I just didn't know it was coming off like "don't talk to me" instead of "I don't know what to say when you talk to me."
So, completely on the fly of course, I planned this weekend where the three inner circles and me could get together, all of us, for the first time since high school graduation. It was brought on because one the Inner Circles asked me if we were ever going to act on this fantasy road trip we'd been talking about since middle school. I said probably not but we should at least get together for a few days and go to an amusement park or something.
Because I so utterly suck at planning, one of the inner circles can't make it. We're all way bummed and miss her a lot. The remaining three of us are gonna try and pull it together anyway, but we might not make even that.
So, yeah, she's one of my best friends and it's ridiculously easy to miss her. I always say she's more like my sister than my best friend. What makes this all worse is that we're all kinda going through some stuff right now and need each other more than ever. We have IM and email, but that's just not enough sometimes.
It's not her fault and there's nothing she can do, but I wish she could come. The chance to just blow off some steam together like the good ole days is what we all need right now.