My eyes are green...

[sethgray]

And green is the color of my true love's eyes
I love the bed whereon he lies
A kinder heart you never will find
And I will gladly give him mine
Green is the color of my true love's eyes

I want someone to love me like that. I also want to stop being cynical and be the happy and sweet boy I used to be, but that's not happening either.

Comments

[softbluebuddy.livejournal.com]

Seth, you know it will happen. You will be loved like that and even better. Sometimes it just takes a little longer but when it happens all the loneliness you feel now will just fade away into nothingness and you will be happier than you ever even imagined.

So, you see, my friend, you have that to look forward to. Yes. You. Do.

But in the meantime, *hugs*, cause it does suck while you are waiting for true love to show up. ♥

Oh, and I had to use my eye-con for this post. Hope you don't mind.

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

"eye-con" That's cute. ^_^

I was just in a silly, introspective mood last night, ignore me. The problem is I'm just waiting instead of going out and looking which is exactly what you shouldn't do. But there isn't a lot of point in looking where I live anyway. Sometimes it feels like I'm the only gay guy in the tri-state area. Which is, of course, ridiculous, but there you go.

[8rayray8.livejournal.com]

Aww Seth *huggles* Someone will someday love you like that. In the mean time you have your hags who love you more then anyone else ever could.

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

*pets* Like I said, just in a weird mood last night.

[charisstoma.livejournal.com]

Seconds post from 9rayray8.
Thought I had you stashed safely in Montana for some reason in a tall tower with an enchanted doorway/stair to keep you inside. You think that you are isolated but you just have to find a more populous area close by for meetandgreet. Carefully of course.
You write Regan doing it so you have the manual. You wrote the manual.
*slaps self* Wait. Then you'll get a life away from writing. *hides key to the tower*

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

Lol, oh dear. Writing about someone is not me doing something I have never done is quite a different thing than doing it myself.

[8rayray8.livejournal.com]

I'll take you adventuring one of these days, I promise ^_^ You don't even have to leave with me lol

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

Lol, adventuring. Is that what the kids are calling it these days.

[charisstoma.livejournal.com]

*sigh* yeah.
I think in some ways this is why some people drink or do drugs. We kind of do know what we need to do,be ourselves/let our shiny side out, but without the inhibitors gone we can't.
*** public service announcement: this is not a recommendation to go out and start/continue abusing drugs or drink ***
Polish yourself up (not there, at least not publically or right this minute. ahem.. pay attention),be comfortable with who you are, be financially independent so your choices aren't as limited, and realise you have years to find that person. So relax and be yourself.
For myself a sense of humor and agile mind are big turn ons. Great body is nice but toned is good too. That's from a female point of view. Male requirements of another male, you have a better handle on.*slaps your hand* What did I just say above.
*sighs. jumps off soap box*
Just be who you seem to be. I think you have all the requirements needed except for the financial independence. Think higher education. You have a wider number and more diversity of people to fish from.

[8rayray8.livejournal.com]

I second this motion.

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

I dunno, maybe I should try the whole drugs and alcohol thing, just to see how it suits me. I don't have to abuse it, maybe just rough it up a little. ~_^

Joking, of course.

[raisaol.livejournal.com]

I absolutely love that song "Black is the Color". I've been obsessing over it the past few days...

(Oh, and I know you don't know me, but your posts were really interesting and I decided to read all of the ones I could see.)

I hope you are able to find someone like that; in fact, I know you will one day. And I'm sure you'll stop being cynical in time. Perhaps it's merely a phase?

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

Heh, well, I'm glad you think my little lj is interesting, lol. Thanks for the comments. Just out of curiosity, what made you wander my way?

[raisaol.livejournal.com]

Honestly? I found your story (or novel, I suppose) posted on fictionwriters. I decided to come check out your journal before going to read it. :-) It sounds really interesting.

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

Oh, well cool. I'm glad the ads are working, somewhat. I hope you enjoy it when you find the time to read it. Although, I do have to say, I'm not sure novel is really what I'd call it; it's very much written for the web.

[raisaol.livejournal.com]

I thought maybe it was a novel-in-progress because after reading the first chapter just now, I have to say your writing is fantastic. :-D

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you so much. Well, it is in-progress, that much is true, but "novel" implies levels of pacing and editing and what not that I don't subject Dead Boyfriend to, is the thing. Not that I'll get my panties twisted if someone calls it a novel, I'm just not sure that's the most accurate term.

Yes, I'm just anal. ^_^

[raisaol.livejournal.com]

Alright then. What should it be termed? (I'm the sort of strange person who needs a title for everything or my OCC life is in chaos.)

It's alright. I am, too. :-D

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

I suppose the most fitting term would be "web serial," but that's more unwieldy than "novel." I'm not sure what exactly it should be called.

[raisaol.livejournal.com]

I think "web serial" will fit. :-) And I knew I'd heard that word somewhere! Just couldn't recall it...