Work ethic, I have none

[sethgray]

Sigh, I have zero motivation and there's a whole bunch of shit I'm supposed to be writing right now. There's no less than three submissions I wanna get done before early October, there's a chapter due on Monday, and I should have had a side story up HOURS ago.

But I'm just...blah. It's a weird feeling, I'm in a good mood, but I just don't wanna write. I have to get it together enough to get the side story up before the day is over. Good thing about refraining from laying down an actual time. Bad thing is I probably procrastinate more than I should. Unfortunately, that's just how I operate. I'm not one of those people who can make the words come if there's nothing there. Lots of authors give advice "just write" but I can't make it work for me. If the well is dry, digger deeper accomplishes nothing.

On a more positive note, I was fiddling around with some songs of mine from back when I wrote songs, and one I wrote just the other day when I was pissed, and recorded them to my computer. Just for shits and giggles mostly. Then last night just before I dropped off, I had a brain blast and more lyrics came to me for two different songs. That was kinda cool.

Maybe my muse got her wires crossed or something. It's less than helpful. Don't get me wrong, it's cool that music is moving in my head again, but I kinda have more pressing concerns.

So I'm gonna do something really mundane and ordinary, like take a shower and go for a walk or something, to try and jiggle the wires loose. Then I'll come back and see what's what. The side story must absolutely be up today, that is imperative. Can't take money for something and then not deliver. I also wanna do some work on those submissions. It would be insanely cool to actually sell a story of mine--even if it's not that much and I couldn't tell any of my family about it. *sweat drop*

Comments

[geckoholic]

Song writing? How awesome! *nods*

I'm not one of those people who can make the words come if there's nothing there.
Bah, same here. If it's not working, it's not working. End of story . . . :-/

I saw you got the side story up now (YAY for that), but still, I hope your muse will behave again soon. :-)

Oh, and when I read my friends page earlier, and the banner of dead_bf was on the screen, I suddenly heard a hiss behind me. Boyfriend stood behind me: "Hey come on, I'm not THAT bad, am I?? Try talking before you start planning my death!" Heeeh . . . *giggles*

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

"Song writing? How awesome!"

Eh, not really. Honestly out of all the years I copied down my angsty teen bull, it only produced two passable songs. The third song I recorded I wrote just last week. It would also help if I could sing, but you can't have everything.

"Boyfriend stood behind me"
Lolol, OMG, what did you say to him?

[geckoholic]

Well, still, you're talking to someone who can't even read notes and was born without any sense for rhythm, so you nevertheless see me impressed . . . ;-)

I told him the truth! Just a story I'm reading . . . *blinks innocently* Heeeh . . .

[charisstoma.livejournal.com]

You know I take rainchecks for later? *smile* You didn't?
I kind of thought that things real life were interferring
but would feed when prompted. *smile*
You okay otherwise?

[jupiterrhode.livejournal.com]

I honestly was in a really good mood, surprisingly enough since I got into it with my sister the other day, but for some reason fingers to keys just weren't cooperating. It was strange, but after my shower I was able to get my side story up. I almost thought I wouldn't make it because a friend came over, but she ended up taking a nap so it was all good. Lol.